Wish

Oh how I wish I could destroy that side of me, what does it offer other than complications.  At times I feel that it is right, but I must keep it a secret.  Others can never know and because of that I feel trapped.   Its not that I go out and broadcast the news but, just that I must change who I am in order to protect people from unwanted grief.  Wouldn't it be easier to just destroy that side of me so that I never have to worry.  I feel like an outcast, maybe it is advantageous to truncate who I am and be open than just hide what is there and hope that it holds.  I hate that side if me, I want it gone.